The kids brought home a............ Caterpiller

Chris took the kids to the park and they came home with a caterpillar!

 They created a little habitat for it... Hoping we can get a butterfly or moth.

Lets see what this little adventure brings! This momma is kinda excited.

A woman just making it thru life

Laura <3

Pictures of the kids.

As I posted in an earlier post, I have no confidence in my photography. It slowly builds and sometime I fall in love with the pictures I take. You can see the post here.....About Me!

I've been wanting to take pictures of my daughter in my wedding dress. They turned out absolutely amazing. I don't know if anyone can/does feel this way but I'm absolutely in love with these pictures.
They are absolutely stunning!

 

I think sometimes "God, I'm good at what I do! :0) Other times I think... these are good, but are they good enough. I am in constant need of approval. 

Again my facebook where you can see more of these pictures is Love.Cherish.Joy Photography

How did I get the name you ask?! I took the beginning letter of mine and my children's names. 

Laura = L= Love

Cheyanne = C = Cherish

Jaxxon = J= Joy

Love Cherish & Joy are things you find in pictures. It is a moment frozen in time. Something that is Cherished forever! 

I also took pictures of my daughter in her dance outfit. 

I also got pictures of my kids to send to my family, that have recently moved away.

 I can't believe how old my daughter looks in this picture!!

I'm in love with these pictures! 

A woman just making it thru life

Laura <3

Doll Face *Amazing Message*

What do you see when you watch this video?!


Woman try so hard to be beautiful based on what they see on TV; what they don't realize is they are already beautiful.

This video represents how woman try even when it is out of reach only to lead to destruction. :0(

Very powerful video.

Baby Fever

When Chris and I first started dating, we talked about marriage and babies... to make sure we were both on the right page.

It took me aback when he said a straight "NO" to anymore babies. I understood completely though. He was 35; had a 15 year old and a 7 year old. I was a little concerned on if he was ready to even take my kids on since they were younger and he's already been here... why would he want to start all over. I didn't say anything because really for me it was a "If it happens, it happens" kind of deal. That... and the fact that getting pregnant scares me entirely to much. I never know I'm pregnant and with the ectopic I came so close to dying.

Then one day sitting on the couch talking, Chris looks at me and says that he's thought more about it and that he would like to have a baby with me. :0) My heart soared! I'm so in love with this man.

Then baby turned into babies!

We had a few of Chris' co-workers over for BBQ this weekend and one of them brought a baby!! She was soooooo tiny and just so darling!

Talk about Baby Fever! I told Chris right there we were having one, and he couldn't say no. LOL. Kidding of course... well kind of! :0P

 

I didn't want to put her down or give her up!

 

Cheyanne being the motherly type (she has been since she was a baby herself) wanted to hold her an begged and begged to hold her.

 

Well I guess she can have a chance to marvel in the beauty of holding a baby!

 

This was the first time I had held a baby this small since..... WOW... might me when my son was a baby; almost 5 years ago.

 

I want a baby with the love of my life; my husband so very badly... I can feel it. I love being pregnant and I love babies!

 

Here's to hoping for one; one day!

 

A woman just making it thru life

Laura <3

 

 

A little bit disconnected....

Raymond finally called on Saturday the 18th.

Cheyanne got on the phone.....

"Hi dad"
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"Good"
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"Good"
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"I love you too"
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"Yeah"
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"Yeah"
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"Yeah"
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"okay bye"

It makes me so sad to see that she is disconnected from her biological father. She would be so excited to talk to him and this time we didn't even get a smile. I know my kids need their dad in their life because it's important to them. It still blows me away that he could ever move away from them.

I was blow drying Cheyanne's hair on Friday. Poor Chris... I went on a rampage about how  my children's real father is missing out on his kids. They are growing up so much and he chose to move away for "nothing" that is benefiting him. All he does is party and go to strip clubs. He wonders why I won't let my kids go stay the summer with him and his 5 room mates. They have a wonderful, FULL, stable life here... and I'm not going to disrupt that or throw them into a life like his.

This morning, I pulled out last weeks work from Cheyanne's backpack. I found this:

 

It's a heart listed with things she loves. Mom, dad, cat, dog, family, hello kitty, sister, ice cream, pizza, step brother, brother, bananas, Morgan,. Alyssa.

 

Her b's and d's are backwards. I was giving her a hard time... I said is this "Dad", she said "Yeah, I meant Chris". I said "He's pretty special isn't he?" She said "yes" with a huge smile, and shaking her head like crazy up and down.

 

No mention of her father!

 

Just her Dad......

 

 

I believe it takes more than being a sperm donor, spending little time, or even just buying them presents to be a dad.

 

It takes a man, a loving person. Someone to discipline, to teach, and to listen. It takes a man that will help fix the bike when it needs to be done. It takes someone to buy their summer clothes. It takes someone to sit on the couch with them and not care if he just because the human jungle gym. It takes someone to cook and clean up after them. It takes someone who will drop what he is doing if the kids ask him to do something and do it. It's a man that spends his nights at home taking care of those children. It's a man that will choose his children over his friends or a good time. It is a man that will put his children (biological or step) over anybody else.

Chris is my Children's Dad without a doubt. He has been their "dad" for the past year and the best one they have had.

 

 

 

A woman just making it thru life

Laura <3

 

How do Moms survive boys?

Cheyanne goes to church each Sunday with a friend from school. She loves it.

I didn't sleep well last night so I was laying down in bed. Christopher came in and said he was going to take the boys to the skate park to ride their scooters. I got up because I want to go with them. He has taken them a couple times while I'm napping or if I'm sick, so I've never gotten to go.

It was pretty dead there. Jaxxon being 4 just went around and around the skate park, getting faster and faster.

After being there awhile, older kids showed up doing tricks on the bikes; flying through the "bowls". Up, turn around, back down..... this momma has crazy nerves.

My boy is such a boy and I just want to be mom and protect him in all ways. It scares me for him to soon be doing those things like flying into the air on a scooter, bike, or skateboard. What if he falls and breaks his arm or leg? I don't even want to think about it.... but I've got to let him be a boy.

So through my clenched teeth and sharp inhales, I will support him in the fun that he wants to do. Without this he may not become the man he will be one day. This is an experiance that will help shape him.

It just amazes me at how fast they grow.

When we got home.... I got my sweet little boy :0) The one that is safe and not giving me a heart attack!

A woman just making it thru life

Laura <3

Camping out without a tent!

The kids have been wanting to sleep outside so; of course, we were gonna get the tent ready.

Problem: We don't know where the poles are for the tent.

Solution: Grab a ton of blankets, bundle up, and sleep on the grass under the tree (in case it rains).

Alexis laid down with her phone... teenager right?! So Chris laid down on her. :0)

So then everyone decided to lay on top of each other!

We decided to roast S'mores! Literally Melt-In-Your-Mouth Marshmellows. According to Chris "There was no marsh to it, it was all mellow!" haha.

 

We then had a lot of fun taking pictures as a family! 

  The fun went on and on. 

 The kids wanted on Chris's back. So they got up, took a picture, and he took off running all around the yard with the kids on his back.

I fell in love with my husband again! <3 He is amazing and blows me away!

Then it was bed time with all kids demanding kisses! :0) 

The kids fell asleep outside, but the wind picked up so we brought them in! :0) 

I love my life. It's so full of fun, happiness; and most important, LOVE! 

A woman just making it thru life

Laura <3